23 May 2009
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This is weird.
3 days ago I was in Rome making meals out of gelato and wishing at fountains.
2 days ago I was in Madrid eating chinese food under Plaza de España and saying goodbye to my señora.
Yesterday I played futbolin at SLU Madrid and ambled around sol and through Plaza Mayor one last time.
Now, a sleepless night and a sleepless 10 hour flight later I’m home, sitting in my bed in Houston which has inexplicably been given a purple lotus flower comforter (and sheets to match) by my mother in my absence.
I have slept in a lot of different beds the past four months. Sometimes I try to remember them. Beds mark the beginning and ends of days, and in trying to remember and hang on to every minute of every day of the past semester I figure maybe it’s helpful, or necessary, to start at the end and beginning.
Sharing a cramped yet comfortable (cozy?) bedroom in Bologna, Italy exactly one week ago, Greg, Chris and I shared some pillow talk about the nature of memories. How memories are fragmented by nature, how it’s easiest to remember how things look and harder to remember how things smell or feel, and how that’s kind of sad. I can’t remember every detail of January-May, but maybe that’s okay— we agreed memories are never really lost, and that often times memories are better left to be triggered and serve as random reminders days, months or even years later.
Like the May morning I sat in spanish class, lightly tapping my feet an anticipation of 11:50 only to notice a bit of dust rising from each beat in a sun beam from the window, and only later still realizing that that was not just any dust, but that I’d worn those shoes over Spring Break and managed to coat them with sand while riding a camel around the Great Pyramid in the crumbly Cairo desert.
Or like just a few hours ago, when I was more concerned with trying to carry my overweight suitcase up to my front door than trying to remember the perfumery of the honeysuckle and wildflowers lining the Cinque Terre, but couldn’t help but recall that beautiful hike in passing my mother’s favorite rose bush, in full Spring bloom, as it caught my nose through the sticky Houston air.
And now, sitting in my bed, my Houston bed, I can’t help but think of the many other beds I started and ended my days in the past four months. More often than not, a bed is just a bed, a place to sleep (though at times a sketchy one, in the roughest neighborhood in Athens just around the corner from a few gentlemen shooting heroin on the hood of a car— at least it was only 11 euros/night). But to me, this bed, my home bed, though strangely adorned in a purple lotus flower comforter with matching sheets, marks a final beginning and end to the past four or so months.
I remember well waking up in this bed for my flight to Madrid via London heathrow back in January, reluctant to finish packing, impossibly trying to imagine the coming months. And now I’m here, back to the headboard, reluctant to start unpacking, impossibly trying to begin to understand the past four months.
Above all though, beds are for sleeping, and so I’m off to do that, and for a long time, jet lag or no jet lag.
More tomorrow.
Hala Madrid!
P.S. I realize I have not blogged in over two months, and that this blog has been dead for as long. I have always had my journal with me, and have plenty to tell about what I’ve been up to since March. The hardest part about this blog has always been uploading pictures, as I have so many and editing and uploading take a long time and got the better of me. The next few weeks I plan on typing up some entries and uploading some pictures and filling in the blanks. After that, it’ll look like I was a perfectly responsible blogger and no one will be the wiser.
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